013 + WE ARE ALL THE WORK OF YOUR HAND

[trenchcoatedly]

I wonder if the Admiral has ever chosen a warden or inmate incorrectly. Has there ever been a warden who was unkind and vicious? I'm well-aware that someone can be a good person while being unfriendly at some points, or narrow-minded, but I wonder. Likewise, has their ever been an inmate that was righteous and good?

And that inmates return as wardens... I wonder if all inmates upon graduation become this good. Is is capable for an inmate to graduate but not be permitted to warden after? Surely, there can be steps between a redeemed inmate and someone capable of being a warden.

As a side note, I'd like to politely request that all nonhumans, notably vampires, be treated in accordance with their actions and not their species.

Dracula, I haven't seen you in the greenhouse lately. Are you all right?

Buffy, how are you feeling?

[LOCKED to LUA]

I'd like to discuss something with you.

[LOCKED to MCCOY]

If we could speak regarding my inmate.

Comments

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[nolongerhollow]

There is no convincing people like Buffy or Rayne that I am a good person. I could personally save their lives and they would still treat me like dirt and encourage their friends to do the same.

The exorcism is my last hope. If He will accept me again, I won't need anything else. I might be lonely and need a mate and more friends, but I will have that.

I wish there was a happy medium between caring for people enough that they can hurt me and not caring at all.

...

Do you have one to recommend?

Re: private

[trenchcoatedly]

I assure you, if you are looking for someone who has learned how to care for people without hurting everyone around them and themselves, I am the last person you should speak to.

private

[nolongerhollow]

I see.

That is all right. I merely...

[There is a long pause.]

I really don't want to hurt anyone anymore. But that should include me not getting hurt either.

Re: private

[trenchcoatedly]

There will always be people out to hurt you. There will always be people out to hurt everyone. Destruction is a key element of humanity, not the mention the various other species that define itself by it. It is what we do in response to these people and their hurts that makes us who we are.

Some people will always hate you. But some will love you. Some will be at your side every instant of your life, if you choose to have them. Some will look to throw you in hell for no reason at all, and others will desire to exalt you for the same. Such is the nature of humanity. They hate, but they love with equal force. They destroy and create. It's merely the matter of finding the right humans to care about.

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[nolongerhollow]

Your counsel is always wise, and welcome. I...

If He takes me back I can weather any of this emotional messiness. I think...I can hold out that long. I just...it's not going to be easy. But I will do it.

Re: private

[trenchcoatedly]

Life was much simpler before emotions.

Re: private

[nolongerhollow]

Yes, but...it bothers my friends when I do not show them. I don't want that.

Re: private

[trenchcoatedly]

Well, once you have them, I find it's difficult to ignore them.