trenchcoatedly | 008 + LIGHTEN MINE EYES [VIDEO]

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[This angel looks very confused. Also, he has the bedhead of someone whose slept on his side for a week.]

I.....slept?

[ooc: replies may or may not be slow.]

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From:

trenchcoatedly

As have I. And I'm sure they will at some point, as well. But they're young. And the human life is....microscopic in comparison to eternities. That revelation took me millenia.

I will speak to her.

[He crouches down, so him and Dracula are at the same eye-level.]

What's most important is that you do what's right. Ignore those who disdain you.

From:

nolongerhollow

I don't...I can't...it is somewhat difficult to be the bigger person in this matter when I lost everything to people like them.

[He looks away, pained, then back.]

If I do this it is only for myself now. My Brides want nothing to do with me. Aleera is only letting me dangle. And what is the point of risking the true death only for myself? I won't be around to enjoy being purified. I'll just be dust.

And the Hunters will celebrate.

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trenchcoatedly

I... you're not obligated to do anything with them, for them. If you can't forgive them for what they did, at least not now... then that's your choice.

[A pause. Then, more neutral, he talks again.]

I wouldn't be surprised if it was within the Admiral's power to restore you to your human state, perhaps as a warden deal. He - it, perhaps - is clearly a being of extreme might. Such a thing is beyond my reach, however...if I were to attempt to purify you, I'd most likely turn you to dust.

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nolongerhollow

[He just stares at the angel, and then says softly,] I want my family back.

Do you think I can ever forgive the genocide of my people? The Hunters do not deserve forgiveness and would never ask for it.

[The assumption that he must become human to be purified makes him turn away with a snarl.] I have NO desire to become human again. My race is not a taint. My demonic pact is!

...

I cannot ask your help in this matter, then, clearly. I will not become a pile of ashes for the Hunters to gloat over.

From:

trenchcoatedly

[Castiel gazes off to the distance first, thinking about his own family. he'd like them back, too. Balthazar, and Rachel, and Anna....The thought puts a lump in his throat. he swallows, coming back to the conversation.]

I didn't mean to offend, but I don't understand. You can still be a vampire without this taint?

Then... maybe I can help.

Edited Date: 2012-03-28 11:04 pm (UTC)

From:

nolongerhollow

[He half turns back, hair hanging in his face.]

Two vampires that I know of have graduated without being forced to become human. One is of my blood--and she became a Warden. If they can, I can. Sacrifice some of my power--the demon half I can call upon outside of this place? That I would gladly do. I don't want that part of me anymore, even if it has to be burned out of me. Give up my pact and servitude? Again, gladly. Turn my strength to something resembling a just cause? Certainly. Turn into a mortal man for good? Never. [So much bitterness in his voice.] My mortal life was misery even back when I was a landed prince.

[He gives the angel a curious look, not quite hopeful, at his last statement.]

From:

trenchcoatedly

I was mortal briefly. It was awful. The upkeep of the body, and all the various aches and pains..... it doesn't surprise me that it's not something you desire. I apologize for implying what I did. Vampires obviously work different in your universe than in mine.

[He pauses, considering the statement.]

If your demonic presence exists as a separate state from your race, there is a chance I could purge one without the other. I've never done so, though, and I feel certain in saying that there could be unintended consequences.

From:

nolongerhollow

It is...all right. It is simply that I have worked very hard on becoming a vampire who can live relatively harmlessly among humans, and I don't...I do not even know what I would do were I a mortal man for good.

[Now he finally does start to look hopeful.]

Well...separating me from the Hellbeast did not destroy me when the Admiral did it temporarily. And I...remember...

[He looks embarrassed, even a little ashamed.] My love of slaughter is magnified in that form tremendously. Unnaturally.

I'd be willing to take the risk. Between you and that monk I now have enough hope that faith is a possibility again. You should not be apologizing to me, I should be thanking you. And telling you his story, by the way.

From:

trenchcoatedly

I don't believe I'm nearly as powerful as the Admiral, but such a thing may be within my limits. But I do know that faith is always possible, for anyone, anything.

[He pauses.]

Yes, I'd like to hear the story.

From:

nolongerhollow

I am slowly beginning to believe that.

The man was a friar who followed the mode of St. Francis, up to and including practicing his sermons on cats. His former occupation was the same as his flock: pirate. Once, he had been a terrible man, as terrible as my mortal days. But he had the courage to go against all of that, even knowing what everyone would think, and that he would likely die penniless and possibly done in by the violence he had renounced. He still preached and did his work with dedication and competence, in spite of the risks and occasional doubts about whether he was morally clean enough to preach.

From:

trenchcoatedly

[He listens to the story quietly, head tilted forward with intent.]

This man... he would be welcomed with open arms to the gates of Heaven, for his change of heart, for his decision to follow the Lord's word despite the risks and his own insecurities. He would be granted salvation.

From:

nolongerhollow

I'm starting to realize that being a man of peace and spirituality in such an environment truly requires a different sort of courage. [He's starting to get reddened eyes and a little cough from talking of such things, but...each time he does he comes away feeling he's benefited more than he's paid.]

I'll need to find a dose of that courage myself before we go through with anything. But it is becoming easier.

From:

trenchcoatedly

I will see if there's any available material on this matter in the library, and test my strength in the CES. That being said, I won't know exactly what I'm capable of doing with your soul until I look at it, and that process can be... excruciating.

From:

nolongerhollow

[He gives this some quiet thought, and then speaks slowly, but firmly.]

I will not hold any pain against you. It only makes sense that there be a price and a challenge.

I would be clean even if I must be burned clean.